Je L'ai Perdu

j'ai laisser passer ma chance
je devais aller la voir dimanche mais j'ai pa pu
et la je le regrette
elle s'intresse plus amoi maintenant
elle n'a mem pa 5 minutes pour moi
elle n'ai mem pa le temp pour me voir 5 minutes
et mem les samedi elle n'a plus le temp pour moi
mem pa 5 minutes
aujourd'hui je suis un simple ami pour elle
elle ne n'appelle plus
elle ne me porte aucune attention
je suis plus rien pour elle
j'ai aucune importance
je sert plus a rien
je suis comme un idiot auquel on a fait croire a une belle amitié
mais maintenant quelle a trouver d'autres amis et interets,
je ne sert plus a rien
je me sens comme un pantin
ce pantin qu'on jette quand on a plus envie de jouer avec
ce pantin qu'on fait ce qu'on veut quand on a envie
je me sens comme une merde
tous le monde agissent de la mem facon avec moi
quand ils trouvent un autre centre d'interet ils ne ce preoccupe plus de moi
on essaye mem pa de savoir si j'existe
on essaye mem pa de savoir si je vais bien ou pas
finalement ils sont tous pareille
vous etes tous pareille
tu est pareille
tu agis exactement comme les autres on agis avec moi
je n'ai aucune valeur a tes yeux
je ne vaux rien
excuse moi mais je crois pa que je pourrai tenir mes promesse
je pense que etre seul est la meilleure solution pour moi
vaux mieux ne plus avoir d'amis
comme sa personne ne blessera
comme sa mon coeur ne souffira plus
comme sa j'aurai aucun sentiment
je susi vraiement désoler
mais adieu ma meilleure amie
a dieu

MEMORABLE 13.06.2007

i feel a pain in my heart
today 13.06.2007 is one of my worst day
never since we met she said it
never since i know her she said it
i would never thought that one day she will tell it
never in my life i would thought that she will tell me that i am disturbing her
never, never
i can't believe that she will say it
in the past she could have been very busy,
she could have been doing something very important,
but she never told me that i am disturbing her.
what happened today
why now
why this 13.06.2007
you miss me
you don't know how m,uch you miss me
i love you but you don't even care
i give u all my attention, but you don't even care
i give you all the love i have, but you don't even care
why??
tell me why???
what should i do??
why are you neglecting me??
why don't you show any attention to me??
tell me what i did wrong??
tell me what is wrong with me??
i can die for you
i can sacrifice my life for you
i can leave all i have for you
why are you far from me??

please tell me
i don't think i will be able to hold it for long
i don't think i will be able to hold my promises
i can't hold SOUL any more
he wants to get out
i won't be able to hold him any more
i really need your attention
i really need you to be near me as my best friend
i really need you
i know that u don't care anymore for me
i know that your love burns for another one
i know that i am no more important for you
i know that i am nothing
but i hope that one day i will have the chance to be by your side

SOUL who is he??

A man....
No, i am a man, but not him
I can feel him inside me
He was always there, but he never gets out of his home
He is afraid
He is afraid to hurt people
Thats why he stays inside
SOUL is part of me
SOUL never leave me
SOUL is always there for me
SOUL is the fire that burns in me
SOUL is my anger
SOUL is my jealousy
SOUL is my calmness
SOUL is my timidity
SOUL is my joy
SOUl is all of my character
When i am sad, he is sad
When i am angry, he is angry
When i need him, he is there for me
When i am fighting, he fight with me
When i am alone, he stays with me
No one knows him, but he knows a lot about you
You people
You children of the devil
You the one who harmed my SOUL
You the poison of life
You the one who destroy my life
You the one who kills my SOUL

SOUL my friend, my brother, help me to over come all that
Help me please MY SOUL